i feel absolutely horrible. headache, rickety heart, i just want to lay here and feel something- anything besides a bad thump or unnerved-something. everything is tinging at illtuned heart strings.

leave me your friend codes if you want to be ACNL buddies <3 
[this is a must if I already know you well ♥]

It’s looking like my Molly will have to have surgery. The cost is something I can handle — but with my bills I have already I’m trying to chunk away at on top of this, it will be a bit of a hassle… I don’t know what to do, because obviously she needs to have this done, and I will be doing it - but it’s going to be tight for a while, and maybe I can just cancle some other payments in the meantime just for a little while… until I’m sure she is okay again.

On top of it, depending on how this surgery goes… she might in fact need another, and I have no idea how much THAT one is going to cost.

money money money. why haven’t we found a better trade system yet, like those useful magical beans.

i feel really queasy and sick, and still have not heard from my vets. Really want to curl up in a ball and worry away the day. But I also want some coffee, and should maybe eat - but I feel too sick for either and really don’t feel like vomiting.

thank god animal crossing arrived today because all i feel like doing is laying around and crying about my bad feels and anxiety.

The past nine hours have bee really trying. I’m having the worst acid reflx and everything at work is making me sick. I’ve long since thrown up what I’ve tried to eaten at one this morning — which makes me feel really upset, irritated, and low. I don’t like being sick at work much less throwing up. Everything I’ve tried to eat and drink since , will not stay. My throat burns so bad immediately down my throat to my stomach and I end up vomiting in 5-10 minutes.

My stomach is aching and growling and being generally embarrassing and. I cannot eat because everything just hurts. I am trying to choke down some spinach leaves with some grated cheese and hope it goes a little better.

Not in the mood.

“What do you know? You obviously don’t eat it — or anything!”

I love this place so much wow you are such a cool person a+ assface.

i haven’t gotten my period in going on about three months or so. i wonder if it’s still possible to get ~PMS~ because man do i still get extra tears and crazy for a good week or such before nothing happens.

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Sean OD’d and was found (by his parents) unconscious, not breathing, and blue. He’s at the hospital now, still unable to breathe on his own, and they don’t know if he’s got any brain damage at this time from the abuse. This has happened times before, so it will be an honest miracle if he comes out unscathed. 

I’m so concerned and worried for him right now, we can’t lose him. Not to this, not to the drugs, not at all.

what an asshole he just walked in ten minutes ago drenched like a dog.

ps i love you forever even though you give you like, a million heart attacks. please don’t scare me again or i will put bugs in your underwear ✿◕‿◕✿

my dumb dumb boyfriend called me seven times while I was in the shower, and didn’t leave a message, and only texted me ‘are you awake?’ and now he isn’t answering calls or texts. It’s raining like crazy and roads are flooding and all I can think of is something happening to the store or he’s stuck somewhere, or someone came and SHOT AND KILLED EVERYONE — WHY DOES HE DO THIS.

today is perfect weather day. warm and just a little muggy and humid from all the rain not too much to be disgusting. perfect window-open-relax sort of day.  I’m going to take complete advantage of this and write a little and work on a sort-of project with a friend, and do some gaming. In between the day dreaming.