i-am-ambivalent replied to your post: How did you meet and start dating your boyfriend?

Ahh reading this made me think about Stephen and how deeply I long to be with him, living with him, one day.

It WILL happen, Jackie. That much I know. I waited so long - and in that time we never lost touch, because we STAYED in touch. Not just by talking but by sharing, being open, loving, and honesty, trust, and even though we both have demons and pain and open wounds and problems, we gave ourselves to each other.

It makes the time apart worth it, because when it’s ‘done’, you’ve done it - and you get to relish in all that love YOU created and made. You’re going to have your dream, Jackie. There’s not going to BE any ‘blank spaces’ in between, if you make the most of every. little second. of time inbetween <3

either we’ll all still be on the road, back in town, or at the house, he will be home. He will be here. For good. Finally. After so many years, he will be here for good.

No more goodbyes. No more tears. Tickets. Planes. Distance.

Solidity. Not that I haven’t always had it.

I never knew that the guy I met at the worst time of my life (absolutely, the worst) in 2008 would become the love of my life. Well, to be honest. I had a little bit of a clue. I knew — just knew how important he was. But I didn’t understand it.

The way the world works sometimes, is proof there is beauty.

i feel so sick and weak and scary. I hate it. I’m choking these noodles down. i feel so anxious about them.

I feel anxious about leaving him.

Just a little catch up, and all. This is all pretty pointless. 

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I can’t explain how badly i need this - how right of time this is coming.

I’m anxious and scared but mostly only of myself.

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